TAYLA HEATHER MUMM
BORN AUGUST 18TH 2010
WEIGHING 5 POUNDS 8 OZ
BORN VIA CSECTION 10:03PM
Well everyone.... as most of you have probably heard our little Tayla Mumm was born! she made her entrance on August 18th, 2010 at 10:03pm via csection due to labor commencing and not being able to stop it. So here is the official story on that ......
Jesse had been going to the library everyday to get as much studying done as possible and would leave me home with the 4 kids to try and relax and keep this baby in. He was originally scheduled to take the test September 1st but that has obviously changed now. Anyways that morning I started contracting I would take a tributaline and they would stop of a little bit but then come back stronger and stronger. By the time I called Jesse at 4 to tell him to come home I was pretty sure this was it. We called up Jesses parents and whisked the kids away to their house and got to the hospital asap. Got all hooked up and checked out and I had dialated to 2cm and was thinning out.. They gave me more tributaline and alot of other drugs to get me to relax and handle the contractions but never got them stopped so they decided to do the csection.
I was rolled in around 9:30 and as you know I had been dreading the spinal tap from the day I had gotten pregnant lucky for me though it was AMAZING no pain really at all. He was just awesome they all knew Jesse in there and even joked about having him come assist with the surgery I was like ummm NO he can stay here holding my hand he helped make this baby after all. I remember looking at the clock at around 9:55 and really starting to feel the pressure of them getting little Tayla out Jesse kept standing up to see and then at 10:03 I heard the most beautiful loud cry of my adorable baby girl. It was absolutely magical I love that feeling of life entering the world and we thought with her loud cries she was going to be ok..... but well it is us The Mumms right so we have to do things the hard way I suppose sooooo unfortunately off to the NICU she went. She had some cloudiness in her lungs and so they let us know she had develped pneumonia which was just devestating I cannot express how guilty I felt not being able to hold a single one of my babies in long enough to not have to endure the NICU I really thought I was going to make it with Tayla but alas it was not meant to be. On a interesting side note when they did my csection they told me my uterus was incredibly thin and worn out (go figure 5 babies in 7 years will do that I guess) so Jesse and I think my body signaled and we saved ourselves alot more trouble in the long run with Tayla being early instead of say my uterus rupturing.
So as of today Tayla has been in the NICU for 13 days it has been insanely hard as we are juggling 4 children, Jesse preparing for his PANCE test, packing up our house to move, and at the same time trying to sell our house and buy another. I do not think I have ever been so stressed out as I have been in the last 2 weeks. We did make an offer on the house of our dreams unfortunately 2 other people thought it was the house of their dreams and made offers before we could get ours in so we will hope and pray that it is in fact the house that we are meant to be in. With all the insanity I am so very grateful to so many people the family and friends that have upheld us with all of our trials, the ward has been amazing planning dinners and babysitting for us, and of course my Heavenly Father who has kept his ever watchful eye over us.
It is so hard for me to once again to understand why I will never have the chance to hold one of my children in my arms after birth. It may be something I struggle with forever but all in all I know that he is watching over me, he knows me, he has listened to me, he has listened to my frustrations and sadness, and after it is all said and done and all of those feelings are let out I have never walked away feeling sad or angry I walk away with this special peace in my heart that he has heard me and understands my pain and that there is a lesson in this experience. So I will trust him and love him and have faith that he knows what he is doing....while it is not how I would have it he knows all....period I trust in his masterful plan I have seen it work miracles and in the end little Tayla will soon be in our loving arms at home where she belongs and right now that is all I could possibly ask for. So please keep those prayers going for us we need them in all aspects we want our little girl home and want her daddy to pass his test we love you all and are so grateful for the love, support, and help you have been to us. Bless you all and know we will never forget the kindness and will always strive to pass it on.
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